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{Thursday, January 06, 2005: }

DAZED!!!!!

I think this title for this entry is the word. I had no idea why i suddenly felt emotional again. I am feeling all sorts of feelings, angry, frustration, sadness, happyness, depression, gulity and etc... I also don't know what came over me. These feelings just come and go as they wish i really don't wish to feel so much. I felt terrible this period. I tried to do something but i just can't. Why do I have so many thing that is taking over my heart or my mind. I suddenly feel that i am a failure but i don't want to. Today had my English lesson it also touched a bit on the failure or sort of linked to it. It had a part saying that if you think you are a failure then you are. I don't want to but i keep feeling it. I want to be like the rest is it that hard ? Days by days went by but the day is not here yet. Which day i mean all of you must be guess right... Especially "my President" must be. In this blog only you will be here to see my blog. The rest i not sure. This very moment i know you will see this entry. Without you being by my side i think i would once again be in the lonely side of the world. thks to you my president :) Today went to book my practical lesson for driving it cost me 70 dollar oh man that is expensive. Anyway i felt so lousy on vball lately so i shall stop a while to think about shuld i continue or stop......


the special one vbol 8:51 PM
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