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{Monday, June 06, 2005: }

Heyie, time for some update...ok for the recent case; under 19 youth cup we lost and we are out of the tournament. Something which i dun wan to happen, during the tournament arguement arise. Players quarrel and players are angry and me sad. Haiz, why is it the case that this tournament had to end this way. Before the start, i was that high in confidence tat we will make it into top 4...but then the third match of the tournament, i really dun feel tat all have done their best. Why must we feared their way of playing? St hildas have always been in my wish to play against them and i mean really play against them properly i know to win them is not easy but at least not to play till own mistakes...the third match is really shitty not in my life of vball had i lost a game with only 3 points. I am really very sadden by the way of play...it really destroy my passion for vball....i even started to think what have my playing for the past few yr mean...do they have any usefulness or they are jus for me to pass time...and my gym training for jumping if that was the way of play den all that i have train is nth...nth at all....maybe should quit vball and go into another sport maybe an individual game...so that i can really see if i am performing to my standard..a bit tired of team games really very tired le....my passion for the sport is down,very down...that for my sport event and today is the last match against shs small team...

As for Np vball club, been up last nite doing the proposal for the camp which is going to held on 24-26 june...problem with it is that on 25 june i am away for the napfa society outing at sentosa both my event. I planned both activities and yet now i am being crashed in between but still i have to be at the napfa society outing as that was the first plan...hmm the rekke at sentosa bring me to new place and explore the sentosa again and hmm wat i would sae is it is a gd place to slack at tanjong beach... it is totally BIG and very little people there...tired now not enough slp...

Now to my so called "relationship", well somehow i think i am always taken for granted. Am i really like "extra" in this world, no matter what i do; things always happened in the way i least expected it to be. Maybe, a simple guy who longs for a simple gal is very hard and maybe not even possible. I am a person full of craps if you noe me well, always look so carefree and cheerful. But who really knows wat i am feeling inside. Who can "touch" me inside, really saddening. Anyway, i am still SINGLE and i am really afraid of loving people, can someone pls love me. I am really tired in loving people, opps i mean person :D.. anyway i am being lame for a moment if not my rest of the day is going suffer because of wat i am recalling in my mind. Does really a simple guy like me have no one to love me...

And now finally the cold war between my mum and me had ended last nite. No more cold shoulder, hate cold shoulder...damn sour sia...and my youngest brother got the chances to go shanghai with his classmatethis morning took airplane to shanghai le and my room got more spaces think i am going to take this time to clear up my room and throw away his toys hehe...toys are too old le time to get rid of....had been pass down by me and from relative to me...dunno how much germs is living on them therefore haha gd bye to those toys!!

hmm think i gonna blog till here ba, if not i gonna miss out lots of lesson........


the special one vbol 8:27 AM
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