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{Monday, June 20, 2005: }

Hmm, recently have been busy with proposal...like i have always said i dun get stress up easily but i think my temper had been shooting up...i no longer have the patience to explain anything even in vball....yesterday went to smu to play i am really pissed off. I am starting to blame others for not playing well and give excuse for myself to play even worse....what have i become...am i really show my nature now...have no idea....yesterday mike n andy so called give me a "dressing" i was like telling them i would like to state a will tat if in any case i am involved in a serious accident, do not save me as i felt my life on earth is rather meaningless...i have always not take note of things going around me...like wat others people knows i dunno and some more that it is general knowledge e.g. MNC, i was like huh wat is that...Multi Nation Company if i am not wrong now...see i really think i have cut off links with the earth i am living in my own world....actually if i want to be away from the world affair i think i am right now...but in singapore to be that i think i will soon be reject by the society...i dun even have any general knowledge who or even which company would like to have such person to work for them....all is living in a competing environment...to me i am a very relax person i dun really like compete but in singapore if you dun compete you are waiting to die...so there in my will i shall state that i would not like the doctor to save me if i am injuried seriously...cause i have nth to make me stay in this heartless, cold and even competing world....maybe i am born in a wrong century....i should be born in the war times....at least to fight away invader i should still be able to do so....now there is really nth i can do......i am just a extra in people life....not much people would remember me de..i just past by them in their life.....leaving just my footprint in their memory


the special one vbol 9:17 AM
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