• What will i be facing?
• What will i be doing?
• How should i plan to work towards my goals?
• What kind of job would i be getting ?
• Should i be even thinking of signing on with SAF?

2. What kind of lifestyle i want?

3. How is my future going to be build up slowly?

4. When do i have the ability to live on my own?

5. When i would earn enough to own a car?

6. Would i eventually be on my own?

7. How to be a good friend? (Most important)

The reason why i put this as most important, it is because i really find myself to be in a situation where i always thinking i have no friends. Not that i really have no friends. It is just because how i interact with them. I find myself a bad friend as i find that i always tend to look for friends just because i don't want to feel lonely.

There are times where everyone and that include you the one reading it now, would feel lonely at some points. But i feel lonely everyday and mostly at night.

Been coaching even since i graduated from Ngee Ann Poly. Life is quite flexible but at the end of the day, i felt that there is something missing in my life. Coaching kids or young teenager volleyball, would be my best wish. But it is not the skill that we actually want them to learn. It is the way of learning that i wish to instill in them. I want them to know does not mean that you are bad in volleyball means everything. I want to learn with fun and Win or Lose that does not really matters to me. It is the passion which i want them to have.

I mean nowadays who really have passion for anything? Nowadays, kids of modern Singapore lack the freedom to follow their passion or even to have passion. Reason is that Singapore is progressing too fast that kids have to be forced or even reason to keep learning things that would allow them to survive in future. But in the Developing World, everyone had to keep going on if not they would be leave behind to survive.

Yup. This is how i feel i wondered did the gov think how the future generation would become under this kind of pressure. Singapore is consisted as a pretty updated country, i guess in the top 20. But is there a really need to be so competitive? Why Singapore enconomy is rising but the pay in singapore never rises for public sector. There is a rise in the gov pay but singapore pay rate to the public is so so so so low. To be competitive, pay have to low ? Then why are Singapore keep on asking for foriegn talent to work in Singapore and eventually asking them to be Singapore citizen? What about Singapore Own Citizen! I mean Singapore citizen are really been push too much. Foreign talent are paid so much more than what a singaporean are getting.

Practically, it is pushing them to a corner to kill them or waiting for them to turn nasty and bite back. Why Singapore has a decline in birth rate in Singapore? The reason is very obvious to everyone but may not to the rich. The living standard and the education are the most affecting reason. Living standard are way too high, the working adult are seeing it. They had been taught to anticipate thing and so they goes anticipate that in future their kid would be facing very harsh living. Beside that they are afraid to have more kids, they are worried whether they would be able to provide for their kids. Singapore is not a bad country but it is turning into a no freedom country if you don't do what the gov tells you to, you would be facing bad treatment and lack of the power to choose. Where is the Democratic society that we were promised ?! Where have that promise gone to ????

I really don't see any democratic rights........

All these are the reason why i have so many uncertainty about my future. My family future.

These are also the reason why singaporean want to emigrate to other country no matter rich or poor.